Exactly what I signed up for

Our engagement photo...we were babies!

I'm not going to lie. Today was rough. Jon hasn't been feeling well lately, so I only got about 4 hours of sleep last night. And then there was a series of events that were just hard to deal with this morning. (Don't worry...nothing serious.)

I'm embarrassed to say that I was incredibly human today. And not terribly kind... So much so that I had to apologize to Jon later. (Insert sheepish face emoticon.) I definitely have those days...particularly when I'm tired.

That said, I'm still grateful for this life that we are living together, and there is absolutely no place I'd rather be.

About a month ago, Jon made an off hand comment that 'I didn't sign up for this.' He wasn't feeling sorry for himself. It was just very matter-of-fact. To be clear, this is not what I would have asked for, but it is exactly what I signed up for.

When we got married, I hoped for a long life together. One filled with adventures, laughter, babies and grand babies, and eventually, gray hair and wrinkles. OK, so we already have them...but you know what I mean.

But what I signed up for was so much more. I signed up for richer and poorer, sickness and health, good times and bad. I signed up to enjoy the incredible, joy filled ride we've had. I also signed up for the struggles and trials we've had.

Jon is my world. I can't even imagine what it could possibly feel like to love another person more than I love him. Our current life is not what I would have chosen, but it is exactly what I signed up for.